Funny how when you loose someone close to you everyone around you shows their true colors. Two people who are on my list of “difficult” people were true to form. And those I love and find special really showed up and continue to show up and have made me feel supported and loved during this challenging time.
OK so many in my peer Art Group posted self portraits last week. I gather they were doing self portraits in class with Joel. I have not done a self portrait in a while and since I had to clean up my still life because my daughter and family and my father were over for dinner on Sunday I decided it was time to look in the mirror. What I was not prepared for was the picture I created. When I stopped I looked at it and thought, “Wow that looks like my mom.” I showed it to Roy who said, “Yeah that kind of looks like your mom. I showed it to my daughter who said “Yeah it sort of looks like Grandma but it also looks like somebody with liver disease” (LOL…she is a nurse practitioner). I showed it to my dad who agreed it looked like mom. Then Roen (age 6) showed up at our apartment, walked in saw it on the table and said, “Grandma this is AMAZING. It looks just like you!!!”
I suppose something in me was processing my own face, my mother’s face, existence when I was painting this.
