So this week I revisited the subjects of last week’s drawings. I had this fear in my psyche that said if I could not create 2 new interesting drawings from the same subject than maybe last week’s drawings were “not real” and I was just lucky. Maybe it was just happenstance that resulted in my creating these two drawings that felt as though they did such a good job of expressing what I was feeling. I did not enter the self-assigned assignment with any specific idea about how I would compose them or even what they would be about. I tossed the knitting bag on the table and just started drawing. As I drew I moved things around. The same thing happened with the charm bracelet. There were lots of false starts and frustration. My husband and I have been playing this train game on weekends. In this game a single move can involve intense planning and time. So I will often draw while Roy is making his move. Both days I lost horribly because I was so distracted, frustrated and preoccupied with these two drawings. And there was pressure to complete them because on Monday morning the Tot would arrive and the still life on the dining room table would have to be cleaned up. The drawings were not emerging as easily on the page as the two drawings did last week. I did not expect to struggle as much when revisiting subjects I I had already drawn. It was only after a much erasing and rearranging and drawing and more drawing that suddenly I saw the theme of “escaping” emerge from the paper. Escaping from the bag and escaping from the bowl. Sigh the desire to escape our Covid-Confinement is ever present. The desire to escape our financial woes. I miss pre-pandemic life and want to be free of the mask when I step outside. I put together a document to show all four drawings together. It is interesting to compare the two. The second set feel a bit more tentative and yet I am happy with each one. I wish I had the resources to frame them as I feel as though this is a series I would frame.
